The Forbidden Trip

All in a day's work, the CUNning C dragged my mind to the historical CUNning C who had been told and retold by many authors. Contrary to her ambition, she actually initiated a republic named in alphabet beginning with a "C". She was a Manchu fluent in Chinese born cunning. Her name was Empress Dowager Cixi. See? 

forbidden!
is the word that gives a sense of
power.

for someone like her
that sense of power has something to do with
inseCUrity
hence a watchtower:
"you, are not to see me, but I am."

tragic as it is
inseCUrity is never secure
a corner tower at every corner
needs yet to be secured with a moat all around the
forbidden city

standing inside the tower of power
she spread both her arms like 大
"I, am in charge!"

blue sky grinned from above
for she had missed her final lesson:

her moat freezed
snow concealed her schemes

amidst all sophisticated words she could speak under
a curly tongue
she couldn't write her own history

All in a day's work, the CUNning-C-approved trip turned into a forbidden trip because of the people from the forbidden city.

Even Beijing in winter outside the Forbidden City did not send me this much chill.


February the Seventeenth
2020

/Border/

a border
is something inevitable
regardless of wealth, education, or status
there has to be a day, and then another, and another
when we willingly or unwillingly have to pass one

at the border
i braved myself to stand
in a separate manner with separate feelings for separate characters
into separate countries

tomorrow
is another border


Soekarno Hatta International Airport Departure Hall,
February 14th 2020

The CUNning C

when will you see the cunning C?
you will see when you see
you will never see when you cannot see

Hitler. Rasputin. had lost more sanity
than the C, seemingly
yet admirers remain till today

rumor has it, Hitler killed himself
Rasputin, after a series of failed attempted murders
was found dead

books have been written
movies have been played
yet admirers see different

when will you see the cunning C?
i waited in believing that
you will see when you see

until one day, i realized
even if the cunning C ends up H or R
you will never see when you cannot see

now i see


見る人は見る
見れない人はあくまでも見ない


ジャカルタはずじゃなった、
2020年2月11日